But you don't fold, you don't fade
You've got everything you need, especially me
The name is Azryl. Simply called Rhel by most. A year before my legal birthday; do the math. Singapore Polytechnic, Electrical and Electronic Engineering. Under the employment of Starbucks One Fullerton. Can be caught daydreaming most of the time.
My heart is being taken care of, vice versa. Fags, coffee and New York Cheesecake are 
. Superbly irritetek when in the mood! BLUEK. 
Dedications Part 1
Wednesday, July 15, 2009, 12:39 AM
DiqYou have never failed to stand beside me. You took care of me during my hard times and I took care of you when you were having your own snafus too. Though you can be such a prick at times, you are one hell of a serious person when comforting someone or doing something important. Like how you comforted me the other time- ruffling my hair and giving me hugs. It was all I ever needed. And, you never fail to cheer ANYONE up with your silliness. I love you, dude. Yes. As a friend. The greatest guy friend I've ever had.
Huda
My dearest, dearest kakak. The preachy (and sometimes bitchy xD) sister I've ever had. You ALWAYS have the right things to say to me whenever I needed advice. Each time I follow your advice, things never get out of hand. Also, you are one funny lady. Your jokes can be insulting yet funny and not hurtful at the same time. Like I've said, you can always count on me to be your punching bag. ;) And thank you for taking care of me as well. :)
P.S.: Biler mau cukur gua nyer kening geng?
P.S.S.: Tak nak faggot style kening okeh?
Yana
This is the fun buddy. We can talk about any random stuff. And never a moment, that when we hang out, there is no laughter. Also, once put side by side with a lap top in front, we never fail to ogle at hot celebrities/guys/boys. ;)
P.S.: I'm sure things would go out fine with you building new friendships, being the lovely, hilarious and energetic girl you are. ;)
Fitri
This one arhhh. My fashion advisor. Heehee. She would always tell me how I should look like. What I look good in. How I should sport my hairstyle. I always turn to her for this kind of advice. Dunno why eh. When I hug her, always want to lift her up. I think you look small and carry-adable. Apart from that...WE MAKE AWESOME CLOSING PARTNERS. :D
P.S.: Cheer up k babe? Eunos/Yunus will be back from NS soon. Just hang in there baby. :)
Fairul
You were there for me when I needed work. You were there when I needed someone to hang out with. You were there to accompany me to go orchestra (or was it the other way round?). You were there to listen and advice. You were there to make me feel better. You were there with your funny bitching and NS stories. Thank you Abang. :)
P.S.: I'll try ask Rizal your $400 recommendation money okeh? Don't be pissed pissed la. -hugs- :)
Wow. And all are Starbucks partners. Know why? Cause we are a loving lot. :)
"Bitch, imma kill you!
You don't wanna fuck with me
Girls neither- you ain't nothing but a SLUT to me"
- Original singer, Eminem. The one who makes me crack while singing it, Fiq. xD
Missing you, badly.
Saturday, July 11, 2009, 4:00 PM
Everyday, I long for your embraceThat always puts me in a woozy daze
Each time I think of you, I seem to be in a trance
What I wouldn't give to have one more chance
I love you too much
And as such-
it hurts to even hate
Cause you have been my first lover, partner and my only mate.
And as such-
it hurts to even hate
Cause you have been my first lover, partner and my only mate.
Beautiful sadness?
Friday, July 10, 2009, 7:16 PM
For one to realise a mistake, it takes many repetitions and a very hard fall before any occurences of eventual change. It's just human nature. Compare it to the scenario where a baby takes his first steps, he tries to walk but before he can even walk properly, he has to experience a number of hard falls first. Same goes when you are changing your character or atoning for your mistakes in life...the only time you start realising your mistakes and start changing is when you've had a really hard fall. Whatever has happened these past few days, may have ripped me apart to almost beyond repair but it dawned to me that I must stay strong and brave this wounded heart of mine. Life goes on as each chapter unfolds towards the end of my story on Earth.
Though the mind is in a chaotic mess, I try to smile more, be positive and just cherish the remaining people I have by spending time with them.
I'm just thankful that I'm able to feel sadness. It just makes me feel alive and human. For me to go through this sadness now shows that I felt really happy before. Life is never only good or only bad. Like it or not, I have to take the bad with the good. So what I feel now is just...beautiful sadness. Sounds stupid but point is, I'm still alive and kicking. :)
Roadtrips and camps!
2:51 AM
Whoo! My classmates- Janet, Radin, Shawn, Ismail, Wen Jing and myself have decided to volunteer for camps during the vacational period after our semestral exams! Why I'm looking forward, you ask? Becaaaaause, somehow...these camps, they change you, they make you learn and they test your patience. Not only that, we are suppose to have positive energy so we will be able to give the kids the same positivity! Apart from that, Diqqeh and me have been discussing to go on a road trip- ALONE! Probably to KL or something. So yeah, start saving up till Septemberrrrrr/Octoberrrr! Oh, and for those who plans on joining, feel free to join but we can't confirm anything yet. The only thing we can do right now is SAVE, SAVE, SAVE! :)
Another movie outing.
12:31 AM
Today came down to store. Sat down with kakak to listen to her relationship issues. Consoled her. I understand what she's going through. Seeing my sis about to break down, I almost shed tears myself. Partly relating to myself, but mostly, it goes to her. I just feel so much sorry for her.Just be strong alright? I know you are. Just hang in there. :)
Then after that, Ariff, Yana, Fiq and Syafiq asked Huda, Diq and myself whether we wanted to watch Transformers with them. Though it's my second time watching it, I was kinda thrilled because I just need something to do to clarify my mind with so much deadlines coming up.
Well, the movie lifted everyone's spirits a little and in the end we went separate ways. Yana, Diq and myself headed towards City Hall MRT at Raffles City and just crapped along the way! :D
God-Fadher.
Thursday, July 9, 2009, 7:10 AM
Fadher, you will be missed by us, the partners of SB-OF. You've been like a father figure to us- correcting our mistakes, pointing out our wrongs and giving us so much care. Whatever was done to you was so unfair. You do not deserve that termination. It caused your ricebowl to be disturbed. But it's ok; what goes around, comes around. Karma will find its own way around.Though you are gone, you forever remain in each and every one of our hearts.
The movie outing and the window shopping.
Wednesday, July 8, 2009, 4:03 PM
Had an awesome time with Fitri baybee, Huda and Diqqy sex beast yesterday. :) Went to watch 'Ghosts of Girlfriend's Past' at GV Vivocity. The movie was okay. I cried at one part where the guy was making a toast to his younger brother who was getting married. And this was what he said to the brother- "You love everyone and you do not require anything in return. I want to be just like you. I want you to be proud of me once again".
I wish I could do that. To love unconditionally and not expect love in return as well. But it really takes a lot. Then again nothing is impossible.
Then after that, we did some window shopping at River Island, Zara, Pull and Bear and the girls went Forever 21. There was a point in time, I suddenly just got lost in my own world and began going up and down the escalators continuously. Huahua. And Diq actually joined in. Hahas. He would go 'Rock beb' and fist bump me because both of us travelled in opposite directions on the escalator. Gerek la kawan sayer ini. :)
I had loads of fun guys. Such an awesome time spent. :)
